That one sentence could have been my entire post tonight. It was THAT awesome. Actually most of the day was pretty routinely normal, but there was this one thing that elevated it to awesomeness. That thing was God being God, which for some reason always sort of surprises me still.
So I know I told all of you a while back about the scholarship we got to pay for Joshua's ABA therapy. And that because the insurance was going to start covering it as well, then the scholarship would only be paying for our co-pays so the fund would last us about a year longer than it would if they were covering it at full price. Well what I haven't updated about was that the insurance did agree to pay...they just hadn't started actually paying yet. We (naively) assumed agreeing to pay for it meant they would send a check the next day or something. They didn't. So all this time the scholarship has been paying out at full price (Thirty hours a week at $50 an hour, compared to a $50 co-pay per day), and depleting much more quickly than we had anticipated.
This issue quickly became something that was nagging at me in the back of my mind so I would pay attention to it and freak out. Like, "Hello, don't forget, the money is running out and you might have to add $1000 a month to your bills, or cut back on how much help your child gets." I hate those stupid thoughts. So, I partially went into ignore/denial mode and partially went into faith/expectant mode. I thought, "Surely God didn't orchestrate this entire situation just to drop us now..."
And guess what?? He didn't.
We'd been waiting on someone to contact us when the insurance finally started paying, but hadn't heard a word about it in probably over a month. So, like I said, I've been walking around thinking and praying about the situation off and on since then, hoping that I wouldn't instead end up with a phone call to let us know the scholarship had run out and the insurance still hadn't sent any money. And then today when I picked up Joshua, I noticed a note in his backpack. I opened it up and at first my heart dropped because the first line read...
"Dear Mr. and Mrs. Pevehouse,
We have received your last scholarship payment this month from F.A.C.E.S..."
In the minuscule amount of time it took to read that sentence, I had about eighteen million thoughts about what our next step would be and how we would be able to get Joshua the help he needs. But then I kept reading...
"The insurance company has also begun to reimburse us. We will use the scholarship funds to go toward your daily co-pay...You shouldn't owe anything until January of 2013."
What happens is when the insurance finally reimburses, the money goes back into the scholarship fund, because the school has already been paid. The organization that gives out the scholarship then agreed to use that money to cover our co-pays until it runs out. So what really happened is we used all we could use of our amount paying full price, and now we will get to use our full amount in only co-pays. We got a double portion!
I seriously cried before I was even done reading the letter. As many times as God has shown up for us, I'm still always amazed when He does. Why do we do that? It's not that I didn't really think He would provide...my faith has become more real to me than I ever thought was possible since this journey began.
But there's something about that moment when you realize your faith was just validated. When the confirmation arrives and the weight is lifted and you see your belief wasn't for nothing. All of a sudden something you were expecting arrived and now you can add it to the long list of stories you can tell about the unfailing faithfulness of a God with a relentless love for His children. And the next time you have to demonstrate your belief in who He is, your faith comes back a little stronger, and a little more girded.
Today was awesome.
And Jesus said, [You say to Me], If You can do anything? [Why,] all things can be (are possible) to him who believes!